Stille...

I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.

You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.

Come on tell me

You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.

Come on tell me

You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

Nine Inch Nails - Something I Can Never Have.

Fine sangen. Eg er plutselig i Kolbotn. Det er stille her i dag. Vondt å vere her er det og, vanligvis prøver eg å holde meg unna slike situasjonar, men no føltes det litt pliktig å vere til stades, vise at eg bryr meg. Forhåpentligvis betyr det noko for nokon, og da får det vere vondt, eg kan leve med det.

Tingen er - eg mista ein onkel på søndag. Pappa mista ein storebror. Vi veit ikkje heilt kva det er enda, bortsett fra at han aldri kom tilbake fra Thailand. Derfor står heile denne sida av familien på hovudet for å ordne opp. Eg har det forsåvidt greit, det er slitsomt å vere her, men eg føler at det har ein betydning. Skal tilbake til Hamar i morgon, og livet skal gå som vanlig. Har hatt lengre samtalar med både mamma og bestemor, og gode venner er fint å ha, så eg trur at eg skal takle det greit. Ironisk nok - eg har vore gjennom det ein gang før...